To Goddess Bootcamp or Not to Goddess Bootcamp

That is the question....

My answer is, "I don't know." It was uncomfortable for me. It was difficult for me to be open but I wanted to push myself and I did. I think it's okay. I am freer. I have let go of some 30 year old baggage. And I will not carry other people's baggage anymore; it's not my *bleep*. Furthermore, if anyone has any ideas about putting me in a box, forget about it. I'm simply not having it. I will not be defined by anyone's limitations or expectations of me. I am changed. I am a new person. I am different. But it was so uncomfortable for me to get to this place--in such a short period of time. I don't necessarily recommend it.

It's kinda like when I jumped in the ocean to swim out to that pod of wild Spinner Dolphins. Yes, it was one of the most magnificent encounters that I will ever have. It was divine. But, at times, I was almost overcome with fear--after the dolphins swam away and there I was, floating in the blue abyss, at dusk, with my husband, who is a faster swimmer, no life jacket, no swim fins, and my subpar swimming skills. It was frightening and I felt fairly stupid but prayed constantly and just kept heading toward the rocks, while cursing my husband. I returned three days in a row, jumped in to meet them, and each day I swore I would not return but each day I was dolphinzed.

That's how the bootcamp was for me. Each day I pushed the envelope a little further, each day I regretted it and each day I became better, stronger, faster! I am Bionic!

You know, that's it. There are some things that I found very frustrating, strange, and annoying but I would do it again and I hope to Go Further.